Wednesday Musical Chairs: Damn, I Wish I Wrote That
Today's musical chairs topic is (it is Wednesday, right?) Which song do you wish you wrote? (All musical chairs posts by other contributors can now be found here)
I thought long and hard about this one. After all, there are so many songs with great lyrics, so many songs that inspire me, make me cry or give me hope. There are songs where the lyrics flow like poetry or read like a novel, song that I listen to and think, damn, those are some amazing lyrics. But I don't think "so you wish you wrote" really means "the greatest song ever written."
While choosing my song, I listened to a bunch of Nick Cave and Radiohead, Pink Floyd and Iron Maiden, even some Beck and Lagwagon and The Smiths and on and on and on.
All those songs I listened to are wonderful in and of themselves (and certainly a few of them just had that "damn I wish I wrote that line moment), but it was taking a trip back to my own songwriting days (when I assumed that songwriting consisted of writing awkward poetry and handing it over to a friend who could sort of play guitar) when I knew what song - or at least what songwriter - I would choose.
See, I always wanted to be clever. Clever, as far as songwriting goes, means you have the ability to be witty and punchy while remaning serious. Ironic poetry? Maybe. I could never pull of clever. I wanted to write songs that could make people smile at my turn of phrase, grin at my witty use of rhyme schemes, chuckle at my cleverness, yet, when the song is over, think well, that kind of hit me in the gut. Does anyone do that? Is there a songwriter that has accomplished what I wanted to? Yes, there is. And his name is Dr. Frank, he of The Mr. T. Experience and this blog.
Honestly, I wish I wrote all his songs. Who else could invoke Hitler's love life and still come off as sympathetic? And while there are a crapload of MTX songs I could have chosen for this one, the one song I really, really wish I wrote, the one song that makes me simmer with a friendly sort of jealousy, the song that is quietly angry and quietly sad, which uses cleverness and wit and charming rhymes to such a degree that you don't even realize the defeat within and, most of all, the song that makes me say I wish I wrote that is:
I Don't Need You Now (Download and LISTEN to it while you read the lyrics)
There was a time when I thought I would die everytime I thought of you. I'd cry and think myself into a state and drink myself to sleep too late. But what was pulling us and me apart was only breaking in my broken heart: now it's controlled again, on hold again, and more broken in than it's ever been.
So I don't need you now. I can't believe how I ever wondered how I'd ever make it without you-- thinking about you, but I don't need you now.
There was a time when I thought I should try to make myself hate you to get by. It wasn't hard to do, to think of you and all the things you put me through. But now I've had some time to contemplate, and I've discovered other things to hate. There's still bitterness I can't resist, but you're moving to the bottom of a pretty long list.
So I don't hate you now, and I don't even want to checkmate you now. I still don't like how much you don't want me to touch you, but I don't hate you now.
And if I'm crying, well what did you expect? I've been trying, but I still don't know how not to be a wreck.
And though I'm still aware you're still out there, still busy breaking someone's heart somewhere, and though to you it's nothing new, for once I've got no explaining to do.
Cause I don't know you now, and I don't have anything to show you now, except for all of these apologies that I don't owe you now.
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