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naming names

Call off the search for a name for the laptop. Now that I think about, there really is no other choice. It's name is Spider. This is why:
Originally written in June of 2003, it's even more appropriate these days.
I've been knee deep in Trasmet collected issues for the past few weeks. My writing - most of which you've never seen - comes from a place deep within. In that place is everything I loathe. It sits there like a magic elixer made of the necessary ingredients to keep me writing. Hate, fear, loathing, disgust; they are all very powerful emotions. And while love and beauty are powerful in and of themselves, they do not give me the quite the muse that negative emotions do. When I write, I feed on anger. I drink the blood of indignation. I call upon past incidents, in much the same way an actor will recall significant moments in his life, to bring out the emotions I felt at that time and feel them as if they were raw and new. Sometimes a simple song can do that. Sometimes, all I have to do is dream about it. Much of what comes out of those lingering feelings, you never see. They are pieces I write with an old fashioned pen and paper and they get folded and stuffed into a box with the rest of my scrawlings. I do, however, use the same tactic here. It's why I troll the sewers of Indymedia, why I read Morford and Rall, why I dig for stories that make me want to scream in anger. It gets me going. It's what interests me. It's what makes me part Spider Jersusalem, unable to write a decent screed unless I am full of rage or righteous indignation. Sure, Spider has a plethora of futuristic drugs to help him along. I have the blogging equivalent, I suppose. An endless supply of emails - people who send me links to things they know will outrage me. Like feeding heroin to a starving junkie. I hate it here, sometimes. I hate the internet, I hate the my town, I hate Long Island, I hate New York. But I love them all as well. I'm just more passionate about the things I hate. Beauty and love and all things happy, I'd rather just sit and admire, take it all in and keep it there. But hate, vitriol and fear - those are meant to be purged and it's when purging them that I come alive as a writer, when the ink is flowing like blood and the words are flying out of my head faster than I can write them. From issue #4: Spider: The point is, the only real tools we have are our eyes and our heads. It's not the act of seeing with our own eyes alone; it's correctly comprehending what we see. Channon: Treating life as an autopsy. Spider: Got it. Laying open the guts of the world and sniffing the entrails, that's what we do.
Well, if I can't Spider I can at least name in inanimate object after him.


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Scary a bit. I have a fear the exercising negative emotions too deliberately makes them crowd out the others over time...

I'm a regular poster here, but I'm going anonymous for this one.

Years ago I had something like a stroke and had trouble speaking for a long time, but I found that when I was angry I could speak more clearly. Everyone has noticed that you can make great speeches when you're angry; it must have been related to that.

So I spent years being angry just so that I could communicate... Then when I could speak clearly again I had to learn how not to be angry all the time.

That's what post reminds me of.

That's what this post reminds me of.

I guess I wasn't angry enough when I wrote it :)

Looks like Lileks on a bender.

I thought I was the only one who named thier computer ;-) mine is Bob, Bob the Brain.

Congrat's on the new toy, Michele.
The idea to name my computers had never occurred to me - I'll have to ponder for a while...

Shucks, I was going to suggest "Rallbreaker".

Let's see - my main box is 'The Green Dome', my old box is 'The Stone Boat', my laptop is 'Rover'... can anyone guess what my wireless network is called?