last dance for the pity party
last dance for the pity party
(note: I've had several drinks. Apparently I've substituted chocolate and alcohol for nicotine. Feel free to ignore this post.)
Alrighty. Now four people have taken me off their links list and publicly announced it.
Look, I understand if people don't like the direction this space has gone in. But aside from politics, I still do talk about my kids and my life and the general mundane things of life. That's not even the point. The point is, why does it have to be public? I don't want to be involved in some big internet drama, but really, this is not just pissing me off, but hurting like hell.
These are not just some random people who linked me by chance. These are people I had a relationship with. People who I thought accepted me for who I am. Again, I don't care that you took my link down. I would have been happy to still talk to you in email, etc. It's the fact that you made is so public, so out in the open stings just a bit. Not to mention humiliating.
Thanks, guys. Notice I'm still taking care not to mention any names or put any links here. Anyone else going to step forward and say something? Come on, you can do it.
My name is ____________ and I am taking Michele off my links list.
Come on, do it. Do it for the children. And while you're at it, take out full page fucking ad that you think I'm a hateful, vile creature.
My inner hatred and angst is pretty fucking personal. It's never going to go away becaues I have been fucked over to the core. Shit like that does not leave you. Yes, I'm high strung. I always have been. Imagine if I wasn't on Paxil! I'd be eating live fucking chickens for breakfast!
I'm sorry if my inner workings and the things that tick me off or make me tick upset you. I'm sorry if I'm not the person you thought I was. Guess you didn't quite know me after all. And you - you know who you are - I am really incredibly suprised and hurt beyond hurt that you joined in the fray and decided to take me off your list. For such an open, liberal person you sure are fucking closed minded. Not to mention a follower.
What's interesting is that people like Brandy and Robyn and Todd, some of the biggest tree hugging, peace loving people I know, still love me and respect me and read this site. They have looked past our differences to realize that I'm a person underneath all that anger.
I'm hurt, I'm sad and I am full of more fucking rage now than ever. Just leave your name here if you are going to take me off your links list so you don't have to go make a fucking announcement on your own blogs that you think I'm an ass.
I'm 40 years old and this is grade school all over again, when Gloria told everyone that she hated me, so of course everyone else came out of the woodworks to hate me, too. It's like bringing your lunch into the cafeteria and realizing that there's nowhere to sit because no one will make a space for you.
Hey, you know what? Gloria turned into one ugly motherfucker. She lives in a double-wide with her six filthy kids and three ex husbands behind her. Heh.
Thanks. Back to your regularly scheduled programming.
Wow. You can record your own commentary on the Spiderman DVD. Kick ass.