meet the new boss
meet the new boss - same as the old boss
Someone took me off their link list today. That in and of itself is no big deal. It's the reason why.
At first, it didn't bother me. But the more I looked at the reason, and the more I looked at one of the comments on the post regarding the reason, the more it hurt.
See, the person wasn't de-linking A Small Victory. They were dismissing me. My views. My persona. My feelings.
I know things have changed around here. My world has changed in the last year and with that, I have changed. Obviously, the subject matter here would follow in that path.
But there is no Old Michele/New Michele. This is just me finding myself - finally, at 40 years old - finding my niche and finding where I'm comfortable. I feel at peace with myself and who I am now. If the person who I really am offends you or makes you uncomfortable, fine. I can still choose to be hurt by it thought.
I'm hurt that people can't look past my politics to everything else I am. A wife, a mother, a sister. A person with a decent sense of humor and what I personally believe to be a pretty big heart.
I know I have lost a lot of readers in the past few months. I don't mind that because above all, this site is still what it started out to be - a place for me to rant and rave and talk and vent. It is for me. Sometimes it's a whole shitload of fun, sometimes it's angry, sometimes it's downright nasty, and often times it's my heart and soul that are put out here in these words. So to turn your back on me just because my politics have changed is demeaning, because you are saying I as a person am defined by my politics. That's impossible because no one political ideal is mine. As complex a person as I am, my ideals and beliefs are just as complex.
I link to and read a lot of blogs whose authors are on the complete opposite of the tracks from me in the matters of politics or religion or world views. But I still like them for who they are, for the person that lives beyond their party of choice or the church they go to, for their hearts and minds and souls.
I may come off like a blood thirsty hawkish mean-spirited, belligerent lunatic sometimes because I am. But I am also a myriad of other things and I only wish you wouldn't dump all of me in the trash just because you don't like a small part of me.
This person claimed that I am not doing anything to better the world or myself. I think that's what hurts the most. Just ask me what I'm doing. Not every single detail of my life goes in here. You have no idea what I am doing outside of this box on your screen.
If you know anything about me you know I will not change for anyone but myself. I have not really changed so much as found a spot to be comfortable in. This spot may seem like a drastic shift from where I was a year ago, but my life has made a drastic shift, also. This is where I landed and I'm in a place that I like, finally. Where before I was always questioning myself and my motives, now, for the first time, I don't second guess myself.
Now, if you don't mind, I have to get back to being angry and pissy and looking for blood. Oh, and for the lot of you that are shaking your heads over the behavior of the contestants in the Daily Pundit contest, find a dictionary and look up the words parody and fun.
On with the show. I promised someone I would show my cleavage tonight.
*addendum* To answer an email question (are you now or have you ever been a conservative?), I quote Stephen of Vodka Pundit: Iím a Falwell-tweaking, gay-marriage supporting, drug legalizing, pro-abortion, pro-immigration, anti-trade barrier, wary-of-organized-religion kind of conservative. Hardly a conservative at all, but I digress.