Nausea, suffering, perversion, calamity
Nausea, suffering, perversion, calamity
We sat on the couch, Justin on the end sitting up and me at the head of the couch, legs stretched out and feet resting on Justin's lap. I wiggle my feet. Bat my eyes. The signal. He notices and begins to rub my feet.
Now, up until a few months ago, I have never, ever let anyone touch my feet. I hate feet the way some people hate anchovies or flavored coffee. But it just so happened that some time over the summer, Justin forcibly made me experience what a foot rub was like. To think what I had been missing this whole time because I had this revulsion to feet! A foot massage is the most glorious, stimulating orgasmic feeling in the world. Besides earth-shattering orgasms of course. So that's how it came to be that I willingly let go of the "don't touch my feet" rule.
But I am still turned off by feet. Just not my own. So as we sat on the couch last night and he finished rubbing my feet, I sat up. He decided to stretch out and his right foot inadvertently touched my thigh. I immediately broke out in hives. Well, not really, but it felt like it. He withdrew his foot in a panic, realizing what he had done. He broke the rule. His feet, nobody's feet for that matter, can touch mine above the knee. He can play footsies with me under the table and he can rub his foot against my calf while we're in bed, but feet above the knee is an absolute faux pas in my book.
Which all led Justin to remark, not for the first time "I need a rule book to keep up with your weird quirks." And as always when he says that, he began to recite a list of odd things about me that keep him guessing as to whether he can behave in a certain way or not, and I took to defending myself. I told him that I would write that rule book. I would gladly give him a list of dos and donts for keeping me from cringing and we would all be happy. Which only led to a further discussion about those very things, and no book or rule list was ever written. But we did come up with a definitive list of idiosyncrasies that Justin swears puts me in the category of "needs help." Judge for yourself.
The feet thing.
The rubbing of two specific fabrics or materials together. Towel on towel. Sweater on a rug. Broom on a rug. Felt on anything. It all gives me chills and makes my skin crawl. Just thinking about makes me clench my teeth. Oh, and teeth. If you ever put a towel in your mouth in front of me, if any kind of fabric at all touches your teeth or tongue in my presence, I will run from the room screaming.
Seating arrangements. When we go to a restaurant, I have to walk around the table first to see which chair best suits me. If we are given a booth, I have to stand there for about 30 seconds while I decide where to sit. Sometimes I choose the wrong seat, I will get a bad vibe as soon as I sit down. I then make everyone get up and switch seats so I can find one where I am mentally comfortable.
My stuff. Don't move it. Don't ever ever move anything of mine. I don't care if you are cleaning or dusting or searching for buried treasure. Do not touch anything I have left out in the open. That magazine is there for a reason and that cup is there for a reason and those toys are arranged that way for a reason. Touching anything that you do not have express written consent to move will result in pain.
The dishwasher. Don't bother trying to load my dishwasher for me. I will only take everything out and do it again. The right way.
lights. I cannot sleep in total darkness. There must be some light on somewhere in the house. Even if it's just a night light that I can barely detect. I just need to know it's there. This might seem normal to you, even ok, but I take it just a bit farther. I project my fear of the dark onto everyone else. When we go out, I have to leave a light on in the kids room for the frogs. I'm not kidding.
Physical sensitivity. I have sensitive skin. Don't poke me or prod me when you are talking to me. I have such a low tolerance for pain that a slight poke in my shoulder with your pointy finger will leave me with a black and blue. I am also very sensitive to cold. Don't come near me with a cold can of soda or ice cubes or anything that may accidently brush up against me and cause me to recoil in horror. And while we are talking about physical things, I am not a touchy feely person. Don't pat me on the back or touch my hair or hug me when it is apparent I do not want a hug. Also, if the signs are evident that I am PMS, don't make any attempts whatsoever to get within a foot of me. Touch me and I will take a swing at you (Justin has immunity to this rule).
eating. I do not drink any fluids at all with my meals. I wait until after. It's just some kind of strange habit I have had since childhood. I can't eat and drink at the same time. And I won't drink anything carbonated, either. It's water or iced tea, to be drank after my dinner is completely finished. The other thing about food is I never finish anything. I will leave one tiny crumb or piece of everything on my plate. I will leave at least one chip in a bag, one sip of coffee in a cup, one little bite of a donut. Don't ask why. I don't know.
Control. I will not give it up. I will not let go. Once I have control of something you will have to pry it from my cold, dead hands. This pertains to intellectual property as well as physical. If I say I am making dinner, do not come into the kitchen and make suggestions as I am cooking. If I am driving, do not give me directions or suggestions or use that imaginary brake that all my passengers insist is there. If I have the remote, do not attempt to come near me or even make a suggestion that I change the channel. You will die. If I have an idea or am starting a project, don't attempt to come swooping in with your ideas that will make my idea or project more workable. I don't care if it will make my life easier. I thank you for your suggestion, but back off, buddy.
And then there's the little things that people have a problem with that I don't. Let's go over the list quickly, ok?
Yes, I have to pee almost hourly. I can't help it, stop making fun of it. Yes, I wear black every day. All black. Don't buy me pink shirts for my birthday. I won't wear them. Don't suggest a day of shopping together, the kind of day where you will point out all the brightly colored clothes and remark how wonderful they would look on me. Not gonna happen. Don't assume my choice of wardrobe reflects my life. It does not. Just because you wear green shirts and purple pants with your red hair and blue makeup, I do not assume you are a circus clown. Yes, I am extremely confrontational with complete strangers but not with my family. This has been pointed out to me many times and I do not consider this a quirk. It's called self-preservation. The sound of chairs scraping across a floor will drive me nuts. I cannot stand to have more than one noise going on at the same time. I get up at 4:30 a.m. I hate pets. I don't look people in the eye when I talk to them. I feel every milk container before I pick one out to buy because I think that if the container feels like its bloated, the milk is bad. I will never use the first or last stall in a public bathroom. I can only sit in the end seat in movie theaters.
Oh, and I tend to run on and on and on, not really knowing when or how to end a thought.
Comments
thank god, someone else who has to sit on the end
Posted by: lyric | February 8, 2002 10:56 AM
Mmm, obsessive-compulsive disorder. Thank gawd we aren't seeing ads on tv for ocd meds like we do for every other nouveau malady; I honestly think it's a valuable trait. You go ahead and assert some order in your little corner of the universe. I'm working on mine. But only when I'm sleep deprived - which is most of the time. I know that the fabric of the universe is rumpled if I choose the wrong piece of silverware or if the items on my coffee table are not arranged in perfect harmony to one another. Moving them by a milimeter, or choosing the wrong spoon, is tantamount to making a Wrong Turn in my private choose-your-own-adventure series.
But I don't have that freaky foot thing. (I have a friend who does, tho. We used to be bosom pals, and I had was careful; now I see her like yearly and have to learn all over.)
Posted by: Jessica | February 8, 2002 11:03 AM
My thing was laundry. Don't touch my laundry. Ever. I'll do it myself. I nearly got into a fist fight about this with my own mother when she decided to cross the line once. I've given Robyn a slight amount of leeway with this, but in general, don't ever touch. I'll clean 'em. I'll fold 'em. I'll put them away.
Posted by: Todd | February 8, 2002 12:06 PM
That's a Justin affliction. I can't even get within ten feet of his laundry before tackles me to keep me from touching it.
Posted by: michele | February 8, 2002 12:14 PM
I loved reading this! I think everyone has weird quirks - most people just aren't willing to admit them. My sister cannot stand velor or velvet. She will gag at the sight of a cake mix in a box, or cake itself.
I sometimes have to eat the foods on my plate in a certain order. One that only makes sense to me. I'm compulsively neat, and if I've set the cup and the magazine and the box of pencils on the table just so, don't move them, not even a millimetre. I will move them back.
Posted by: Persephone | February 8, 2002 12:45 PM
Don't touch my shoulders. No! Don't! I said don't! Stay back! You touch my shoulders and I will tear you a new facial cavity!
Posted by: D | February 8, 2002 01:11 PM
miss m, we are very much alike. i am very afraid.
Posted by: miss b | February 8, 2002 01:32 PM
after reading all that, i'm now sure that Candi would win in a fight between you two...
as for me, well i can't stand hearing someone using a pencil. yes, i can HEAR that sound.
Posted by: mikey | February 8, 2002 01:51 PM
I suppose if I even said the words "toe" and "sex" in the same sentence you'd hurt me? Oops, that doesn't count, does it?
Posted by: John | February 8, 2002 02:40 PM
Here's some quirky things you missed.
Tomato soup burns your ears.
You read the newspaper from back to front, only after you check the obituaries first.
You go to the Dairy Barn braless.
And we know how much you love being locked in a closet...
Posted by: Lisa | February 8, 2002 03:00 PM
And let the above post be a reminder to anyone who is thinking about letting their siblings read their blog.
Did you ever think that you are the reason for some of my quirks, Lisa?
Posted by: michele | February 8, 2002 03:02 PM
John, the only time I want to hear "toe" and "sex" in the same sentence is if it goes like: "John was then arrested for attempting to have toe sex with Janet Reno."
Posted by: michele | February 8, 2002 03:05 PM
Wow--you sound just fine to me. Interesting, that's fine!
Posted by: Vex | February 8, 2002 04:12 PM
OCD is only a problem if it's a problem for YOU. Remember that no matter what others tell you. :) I took the meds for a while, but decided I'd rather be odd.
Have you read David Sedaris' Naked? He has a great chapter about his quirks. Naked is also the funniest thing ever written, so you should read it.
Posted by: Nancy | February 8, 2002 05:18 PM
I though I was the only one who didn't drink until they finished eating. Glad to know I'm not alone.
In the past few years I've developed a phobia about grocery carts. I now retrieve some produce bags to put over my hands before I go select my cart.
Posted by: Barker | February 8, 2002 05:26 PM
I like this sentence: "His feet, nobody's feet for that matter, can touch mine above the knee."
It makes me think I am my foot.
I had a girlfriend with a rule book once. It was so big it had rules for the both of us. Problems arose, as I usually can't remember things that can't be derived from first principles. Though I studied carefully I was never able to figure out her laws of thermodynamics. It's good you seem to know yours.
Posted by: chris | February 8, 2002 05:36 PM
Denise has some foot phobia. She freaks out if I happen to touch her with my foot. Freaky.
She has a lot of little shit like you do too - one of which is not anything to do with cooking, laundry, or the dishwasher LOL.
Posted by: Charles | February 8, 2002 06:51 PM
Hey Michelle-
did you know your page cuts the bottom off in my browser (IE 6.0.2600, Windows 2000 2.61)?
I think maybe it's the way you have your overflow set up in your CSS.
Posted by: Charles | February 8, 2002 06:54 PM
I know it does that Charles, but I have no idea how to fix it. Until I figure that out, just resize your browser once or twice, the rest will come up.
Posted by: michele | February 8, 2002 07:08 PM
Michelle: We seem to be so much alike - would luv to contact you privately.....
You know my current email addy (hotmail)...
BUT:
To my family "I" am the Anne Robinson of this family ..... "you ARE the 'Weakest Link - Goodbye'..
Yes, I can be (+ am abrasive).
I DO care very much about people in my community.
I do NOT (often) 'fight' for my OWN rights, would rather fight for others.
Enough about me.
What you have said about the "Driver" with children not secured .....
This might just be the next court case, with 'Autopsy' reports on children NOT being secure in a moving vehicle......
In fact, here in the UK., we learned that 2 children were burned alive whilst waiting for their parents to return to that car.....
OK. Certainly 'NOT!' One parent SHOULD have been with them at ALL times.
Suggestions are:
Contact me privately (if you wish).
Publicise YOUR encounter with this 'driver'.
ASK all schools in YOUR area to publish a similar document so that ALL drivers will be not just 'aware' BUT compliant.
Think about it!
Save a number of 'small' lives && YOU will save many many older lives.
A.
Posted by: Ann. | February 8, 2002 07:31 PM
I think maybe I have found people who can share my trauma - that damn Jaguar commercial. Woman buys man a model of a jaguar, she takes his photo with a poleroid, he calls it a toy, she pushes his hand holding photo towards him with her foot so he will see actual jaguar behind him in driveway in the photo. I have such problems with that whole 'use foot as another hand' thing in that commercial! Have you seen it? Do you think it's creepy too???
Don't you hate it when silverware scrapes against a plate and makes that shrill skreeking noise?
shivers
Posted by: batgrl | February 9, 2002 12:00 AM
that's a lot of issues, there, Michele. (i relate)
Posted by: kd | February 9, 2002 12:12 AM
what is the dairy barn - who do we have to call do get photos?
And don't any mutherfucker dare touch my coffee cup - yeah it hasn't been properlyw ashed for three weeks, but it's been rinsed, and it ain't like the plastic one that rotted, but i din't know for like 3months, cos i thought it was just coffee sludge....
Posted by: g | February 9, 2002 05:15 AM
My quirk has been given a name: Teeth-Forking. The act of scraping your fork along your teeth as you extract it from your mouth. There is something about that slight metallic sound that actually causes me physical pain. I have to leave the room or ask the person to stop. People think I am just being retarded but I really can't handle it at all.
Posted by: gord | February 9, 2002 12:15 PM
G - the dairy barn is a drive thru establishment that sells milk, bread, eggs and just about anything else you can think of... how do i know this? well 1) i'm from long island and 2) my dad built most of them...
Posted by: frank | February 11, 2002 11:22 AM
Great. Now every time I go through a Dairy Barn braless I'm going to think of Frank's dad.
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